The crappy town where I'm a hero!

Hee!

2005-12-30T06:45:13Z

Also...

2005-12-04T01:11:35Z

Just when I think I am so over pirates.

and, best way to eat chestnuts:

Cut them in half, place nut side down on paper plate and microwave for two minutes, depending on how many, a handful is two minutes. They get warm and soft and just slip right out of their shells, and they are so potatoey and excellent.

Fun times!

2005-12-04T00:37:32Z

So, I get to be an alternate recapper at fandomtalk.com! (It's the kinder, gentler approach to recapping) I still read TWOP, I mean, everyone does, but TWOP doesn't recap Numb3rs and they just started recapping Supernatural and Grey's Anatomy, so I was going to fandomtalk.com for those shows all year. Plus, I love some shows that just wouldn't survive at TWOP; I'm mostly talking about Numb3rs here. I love Numb3rs but I know that it is just plain silly sometimes. TWOP would tear it apart like sharks would a ketchup covered baby.

Anyway, my first assignment is an actual episode of Numb3rs, so yay! I hope I don't have to do the one about child pornography, because I jdon't know any jokes about child pornography.

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-11-14T17:05:00

2005-11-14T22:27:21Z

Under the cut are many, many icons.

1. Can't take the sky	2. Fear (it's an emotion!)	3. Big Damn	4. Shiny	5. Beginning
6.	7.	8.	9.	10.
11.	12.	13.	14.	15.
16.	17.	18.	19.	20.
21.	22.	23.	24.	25.
26.	27.	28.	29.	30.
31.	32.	33.	34.	35.
36.	37.	38.	39.	40.
41.	42.	43.	44.	45.
46.	47.	48.	49.	50.

Some of these might bear a little explainin':
4. I think it's "shiny" that she can do that. What?
6. In my head, that " '03 Bonnie and Clyde " song by Beyonce and Jay-Z is a totally legitimate Rayne song.
11. Insects = incest. It's in James Joyce, people!

I have no explanation for the rest.

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-11-13T10:30:00

2005-11-13T15:36:10Z

Wow. I should do NanoWriMo every month. Not because I'm doing so well with my novel, but because I've generated, seven ideas for stories that I'm really hopeful about, and I've made breakthroughs with two old stories.
When my brain wants me to procrastinate about something, it can be very devious, even doing actual work to get me to slack. I think I'm going to try to do well with my word count today, and then work on short stories on my next day off. No, no, NO. I should work with the stupid novel and take notes on the damn stories. Maybe I can work on them next month.

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-11-10T22:15:00

2005-11-11T03:26:41Z

Furuba- I totally forgot to read the last four chapters (98-101), and they were kind of important. I can't believe we finally found out what Shigure's BIG SEKRIT is. I totally thought the mangaka was bluffing for the last one hundred chapters there, but I was wrong, that was pretty good. Good job, Furuba-mangaka-whose-name-I-forgot-God-I've-been-reading-this-series-for-SO-LONG.

Also, how many Rayne icons have I made for firefly50? Try FORTY-FIVE, baby. Yeah! Of course, you can just see where I started to lose my mojo, because many icons suck, and you can see where I learned how to do something new, because I do it on like SIX ICONS IN A ROW...and I'm not satisfied with many of them...I may do some over after I complete the fify. I'm pleased that I've piled up so many, but over the last month I've noticed way more Rayne icons around than I'd noticed before, so pretty much all the scenes I iconned have been iconned before...but I figure, everyone knows that Rayne moments are few and far between in actual cannon. As it is, I'm goin to have to blend the last five, and they are going to be RANDOM AS HELL.

This has been a great excercise for me though, learned a lot about iconning, from many tutorials, which, I need to credit people in my userinfo now, because I guess people prefer that to being credited post by post. I feel dumb doing that though, since I don't really make icons all that often. It'll be like, "here's who's brushes and tut's I used that one time I made icons."

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-11-08T19:20:00

2005-11-09T00:23:48Z

I recced what I thought of as Darkfic over in rayne_shippers, because phatgirly expressed an interest, so I mentioned the two that were posted last October, The Living by inlovewithnight and then Broken Like Dolls by aliaspiral which is as dark as you could hope for, although not actually shippy at all.
There's Indelicate , which is dark in that, this is one of the fics referred to below, where Jayne is pretty much forced into the liason, and is not happy about it. And Seeing Eyes would be another one of those.

And I'm going to include Utopia because it's good and dark and, if you're a rayneshipper, solid Pre-Rayne...

Actually, in my mind, not only is that solid pre-Rayne, but it should really be the jumping off point for an entire Crazy Jayne AU. In fact, that would be awesome if only because our girl River could quote Yeats. Dammit. It could be so fun, they could bond over how they've both been tortured out of their brainpans! It wouldn't even be all that dark, after the initial Crazening of Jayne. It could even be kinda cute, in a psychotic killer sort of way...oh, dear lord. Maybe it could be difficult because...well, crazy River has a very specific and sort of annoying voice, and Crazy Jayne would have to sound like...I don't know, man. Also, I mean, they're both crazy killer weapons? They wouldn't contrast with one another quite as prettily. It could be fun for a short story though. And it could be dark as hell, if they, you know, killed the whole rest of the crew and took over Serenity, and wandered the universe, crazier and scarier than Reavers. Could be a Crazy Reaver Romance. Ok, I just squicked myself.

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-11-06T21:20:00

2005-11-07T02:22:12Z

Though I am about...two...no, let's be honest, four thousand words behind on my NanoWriMo novel, I find myself totally reading communities and websites which I vowed to ignore all month.

I am like some sort of super idiot.

Not only that, but I've started two other stories which have nothing to do with the novel, just, I all of a sudden am getting ideas for stories which I do not have time to write. I sure as hell don't have time to write fan fiction...beautiful, delicious fan fiction...or READ IT. Nor do I have time to comment FOR AN HOUR at rayne_shippers.

I am like some sort of super idiot.

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-11-04T19:39:00

2005-11-05T00:43:29Z

Okay, so it's like, day four of NanoWrimo and I'm already stymied. I'm only at 5000 words and I need to be at 8000 by the end of the day. I can do that easy though, if I stay in tonight.

On the other hand, I'm right on schedule for firefly50. Some of the icons suck, but I'm at 28. Five a day is working out, but oh lord, I need to not look at screencaps anymore. Or I need to search out some Hi-res ones. I'm so sick of the Screen blend! On the other hand, curves layers are still blowing my mind.

An UnGODly amount of crap to do, that's what I have

2005-11-02T23:12:40Z

Also, an old "friend", really a "frenemy", has discovered my friendster account and wishes to be friended, which will mean that all of his friends, who are also my frenemies, will be notified as to my friendster presence. I'm too old to care about this sort of thing, but then, I'm too old for a lot of things that I still do on a daily basis.

NanoWrimo! It's still fun. But the second day is always still fun. The whole first week should really be. And I find myself procrastinating like you wouldn't believe. I actually started a second story, for no reason whatsoever.

I still have to finish my quota for today, so far I have:

3,021 / 50,000
(6.0%)

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-11-01T21:07:00

2005-11-02T02:16:17Z

Terrible things which happened and are entirely my fault :

1. I signed up for NanoWriMo even though I have SO MANY deadlines. I just so badly wanted to write something fun that didn't involve health insurance. SO BADLY. But now I don't have time to read fic or friends lists or ANYTHING. What a stupid idea. I am a stupid girl.

2. I also signed up for firefly50 and chose River/Jayne as my subject. Fifty is a good number. I should be done in a week, but I'm running out of high quality images and am having to cap things myself. Badly. And then, since River and Jayne aren't in nearly enough scenes together, I have to blend them. Badly.

But I don't care, I'll still be/
shipping Rayne most graphically

Anyway, I'm learning a lot about Photoshop. And gradients. Oh man, am I learning about gradients.

Nanowrimo count: 300 words. Aw yeah.

Now, what was I whining about?

2005-10-28T03:32:44Z

I can't believe I was such a brat about the editing last week. Well, I'm over it and I've learned from it and I've written the editor a thank you letter and I'm all kinds of cocky again. Do they have a cocky kitten icon?

I started a new job too, and it's pretty good fun and I like all the people so far. But I have to get up at like 5:30 AM to get there on time...So, I should probably see to that.

For Halloween, friend Jack is going to wear a wig, an ugly dress, and smeared lipstick and when people ask him what he's supposed to be, he will say, "Your mom."

Iconify

2005-10-28T03:28:41Z

Cassiee made Serenity screencaps, and Trextures and Colorfilter made textures and light effects, and I mashed them all together and made icons.

And to think...

2005-10-18T16:33:56Z

And to think that I was actually PROUD of finishing that script. The editor went over it and totally changed everything, and she was "dissappointed" with the execution of my concept. The editor wanted the story to be hella darker than it was, and when she explained what she had wanted to me, I was a little disgusted. But on the other hand, who am I to be so squeamish? Her version wasn't boring, maybe mine was. Now I feel ashamed that I misjudged the situation so badly, and, since the editor still paid me, that I practically stole my fee.

What's the right thing to do here? Do I give the money back? No. I worked hard on that thing.

Do I provide excuses and explanations? No. That would be cheap.

Do I send something else? Well. I don't think that I can really write something in the style that was required, since I don't write rapefic. But it seems cowardly to submit nothing. Maybe since I got paid so much for the first story, I should work really hard on a second story, and then get rejected, just so that my karma feels better. Otherwise I'll worry that I stopped trying because of the criticism, and that will set a dangerous precedent.

Okay, then, that's what I'll do. I'll write my best, and when I get rejected, it will be fair and square, and if I don't, even better, but either way, I will teach myself to work hard in the face of rejection. It's what Naruto would do.

YEAHHH!!!

2005-10-15T06:02:31Z

I finished my script and just sent it off now, with reference pictures.

Oh, I hope they like it.
Oh, I hope they like me.
Oh, I hope they like my new idea for a series.

I wish I could draw it, it's a comedy and it's so much easier to just draw what I mean than to explain it to an artist who doesn't speak the same language as me. I just don't feel like my pencilling is strong enough. And I know there are a lot of comic book writers who are failed pencillers, and oh, I don't want to be like them. So I guess I should just bite the bullet and send my artwork in, and then they can reject it and laugh and me and never buy any more of my writing, my artwork is so laughable.

Whatever, at least I finished this script. Three hundred bucks! I...can't even pay my insurance with that. But still!

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-10-13T21:22:00

2005-10-14T01:26:00Z

Is it really strange that I keep imagining Reavers popping up behind my desk and stuff (I usually work at my computer at night, all alone)? I mean, I saw Serenity a whole WEEK ago. And then last night I watched Supernatural, because I am weak to the cuteness combined with ghosts. Am right now hearing many unsettling noises.

Hopefully the Full Metal Jacket icon will scare away all the Reavers. Animal Mother was pretty scary, I think he could take 'em.

littlesnowdrop @ 2005-10-06T20:38:00

2005-10-07T00:51:10Z

OMG. The new Kira is hawt. He kind of looks like the original main character in that little pilot chapter. We needed a new Kira, because you know I hate Misa and my love for Light died with L.

Is it weird that I've been watching little bits of Attack of the Show because I have a crush on the geeky male host? Isn't he like 19? But they've got comic book segments, and while they are hardly enlightening, when you consider that all comic book geeks have the internet, it's nice to see the home team represent, you know?

Okay. Deadline. Let's go.

Unbelievable

2005-09-29T23:31:13Z

They bought the script. I'm really so happy!

Now I'm going to jinx myself forever but...

2005-09-29T13:50:38Z

OMG! Someone wants to buy my my one-shot comic script! Like, buy it with money! A yaoi script! My rl friends were all impressed because it's the only story I've ever actually submitted anywhere, so they think this is special, but it completely isn't. I tried to explain that yaoi is an incredibly specialized and specific market so it's not like any other company would've bought it, but they don't know what yaoi is and I don't feel like telling them.

And the editors want me to add a few pages, and I could still really screw it up, but until I do, I'm in pipedream city.

Oh gosh, but they want to see a formal presentation for this pitch I sent them for a series...which I could definitely screw up...but I'm so desperately in love with this idea and I hope I can pull this off, oh so much, and which means I have to do a lot of drawing and writing this weekend which I have no time for--- argh, stupid real life, always getting in the way of one's dreams.

Three ways that I'm in denial about character deaths

2005-09-28T13:22:44Z

Even though people in manga don't come back to life at nearly the same rate as people in american comics, because well, because manga is just better than american comics, I still prepare myself for all the possibilities. In fact, the weak part of me still hopes for ressurrections even when it's far, far too late. Like, the series is over or something.

So, here's how I'm in denial right now.
Spoilers and possible (but unlikely) spoilers for Death Note up to 58 and Naruto up to 277 to follow.

1. Raye Penber's fiance, I forgot her name -- They established that even if she committed suicide, she'd hide her body somewhere really well, so no one would ever find it. And they never did find the body. In American comics, no body means no death. It wouldn't have been so impossible to think that she had a fake set of I.D. on her, she used to be in the FBI. The only problem is, how would she know to fake her own death? Maybe she would've done it anyway, knowing that it's a common thing for a heartbroken woman to do, and that it would offer her some safety while investigating Kira. But...she's waited years to finish tracking Kira down...I guess she isn't coming back now.

I didn't love this character, because she was so happy to leave her brilliant career at the FBI to settle down and be a good little woman. And, really, her ability to totally subjugate herself to her fiance is what made her stop talking about her suspicions about the bus incident, when she really should have pushed it-- which led to her boyfriend dying for no reason. So, I didn't love her, but it would be nice if Light could be taken down by someone he underestimated. Maybe Misa will turn on him. That would be awesome.

2. L -- How could he be dead?! We didn't even find out his real name! For chapters I was waiting for him to ressurect, and he hasn't! He could've so easily faked his own death. Like, if he just had some potassium whatever--that stuff people use to fake heart attacks and give an impression of death--which looks like a white powder, kept in a secret pocket with his, you know, bag of sugar or whatever he was eating out of--- he chomped down on a spoonful of something right before he died. And we never saw the body! Vedi and Iver could have snuck off with it, Yagami Chief could've been in on it, for all we know L got up and walked away as soon as his body was carried out of their little surveillance building.

But he probably didn't, although I'm so writing this fanfic. Because why would Rem have killed Whately and not L? L was a bigger threat to Misa. But why kill Whately first? Also, if L were secretly alive he wouldn't just sit around for a couple of years while Kira was murdering people left and right. He didn't need that long to observe how totally Kira-like the second L was behaving, and he knew for sure that Light was L (oh, Light's name begins with L, duh, I never thought of that) when Light looked down at him all evil-crazy as he was dying.

3. In Naruto, Gaara has been dead for like, twenty chapters. But still I hold out hope. Because, dude, Granny Chiyo has a jutsu that can bring people back from the dead? And there's only one dead guy at the scene...well, up until they killed Puppet-boy...but I guess she's already used it? Or something? I don't know, Kishimoto plays fast and loose with his characters' jutsus I think. Chiyo could bring Gaara back to life. But, except for Haku, Kishimoto has brought everyone back to life, and I don't want people to accuse him of being soft, but then, I also don't want Gaara to die. Although, sweet kind Gaara isn't as much fun as rabid racoon Gaara is he?

Warning, Spoilers for Death Note up to chapter 80, and Y: The Last Man

2005-09-27T20:20:07Z

I just finished eighty chapters of Death Note and that series is crazy good. After the first couple of chapters I was like, you know, I think that Light guy might not be quite right in the head. After five more chapters I realized that I am a stupid girl, somewhere along the lines of Misamisa stupid, for not realizing that that boy is a absolute psychopath.

I wonder about what happened when he lost his memories of the Death Note though. I mean, he underwent a giant personality change, all of a sudden, he was concerned about Misamisa's well being, and refused to toy with her emotions, or risk the lives of others even in pursuit of his goal. He honestly believed that he wasn't Kira at that time, so he wasn't acting, what's up with all the morality all of a sudden? Take away the death note and he's his father's son. Give back the death note and he's total son-of-a-bitch again. Misamisa didn't have any change in personality, she was still a total moron when she lost her death note memories, and she remembered her love for Light and her sympathy for Kira. Wouldn't Light remember his hatred of L and his sympathy with Kira-who-has-his-exact-sense-of-justice?

Anyway, despite this, Death Notes rocks with the twists and turns. It makes me embarassed for American comics. Well, manga always makes me feel embarassed for American comics. I heard all this stuff about how Y: The Last Man was so twisty, so turny so amazing! And I bought it and...it's fine.

It's about all the men in the world dying of a plague except for one of them, and how the guy deals with the resulting dykish dystopia. It was well-written, nice art, it had some intersting ideas, but those ideas weren't really embodied in interesting characters, and I don't care what happens in the next trade paperback at all. Still, there were parts that were sad, and really, the emotion was more striking than the suspense.

I read a review where the author was saying that he's always been smug about his maleness, but this book really made him see how truly powerful he was as a man in this world. So now, this comic book reviewer plans not to abuse this great power that his y chromosome has given him. Which was kinda funny, because yeah, most of the powerful people in the world are men, but most of the men in the world aren't powerful people. What are men thinking when they read superhero comics, anyway? It's different than what I'm thinking when I read one, isn't it?